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I liked Alexander. I liked Alexander a lot. Except for the extensive hugging scenes, but that’s just me. Closeness can be shown in other ways than hugging. And bedding. Otherwise, the critics can go hang themselves. Overall it was brilliant, even though it was on the epic side…ahem. A little long, but not too much so. And Colin and Jared were gorgeous and lovely!!!!

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‘Nuff said. (I didn’t like Angelina Jolies “foreign” accent, it seemed a bit fake, but I’ll ignore it on the behalf of an otherwise great movie.)

It’s snowing like mad. There’s honestly like a meter of snow. Meaning A LOT! Driving is from hell. All the snowbrushes are sold out, so I have to clean the car using a towel. Bad idea! Towel = hands numb from cold. I did learn how to attach the car to the motor-warming system whatchamacallit. Even with nubbed tyres, the driving is…lethal.

And I thought winter wouldn’t come this year.

Speaking of the car, I think it’s trying to murder me. Honestly. It gets fume-y inside, even with the heating and A/C on. If I put the air blowing towards the front, the back windows get fume-y, and vic

What saddens me is the things I heard people say on the news; they will vote for Bush because they value their safety and that is most important. Why does this sadden me? Because I see no similarity nor connection with Bush and safety. Does opressing other countries, to make them feel even more intimidated and anti-american, does that make Americans feel more safe? I tell you what it is. It’s an illusion of safety. Why? Because the war front is on the other side of the world. This is strictly a political way of making the illusion of safety. If there are problems within a country, take your problems somewhere else. On an outer threat.

I do not deny that America is or isn’t threatened. But if they are, this is strictly out of political choices the leaders have made. If the American politics wouldn’t be so hostile to the outside world, there wouldn’t be an outside threat, not a serious one anyway. And while the United States concentrate their offence on mid-east, they completely miss what happens inside the country. Have you missed it? Have you missed what the offense on other countries has done to the United States on the inside? It’s easy to say, okay, we have problems in our country, but it’s their fault! I’m fat, but it’s McD’s fault. I have cancer, but it’s Malboro’s fault. Is this right? Let’s sue McD’s instead of going on a diet, and stop eating at McD’s. Let’s sue cigarette companies instead of trying to quit smoking. It’s not McD’s who made the choice for you to eat there. Marlboro didn’t make you smoke their cigarettes.

Why do these solution seem better? Easier? Easier they certainly are. Easier to blame someone else for problems within, than to deal with those problems.

So why does this sadden me? Why does Bush’s re-election sadden me? Because Kerry at least promised to try to deal with the internal problems. Bush promised to continue keeping up the illusion of safety.

This past month has been draining to say the least. My dad was taken into the hospital on October 11th because of his legs. He had had a lot of pain in them for months, he even went to the doctor about it in July, which is saying a lot about my dad. (At that time, they didn’t do anything, said they couldn’t do anything.) Both his lifelong smoking and his diabetes has killed the blood circulation in his legs, so the cells are literally dying out of lack of oxygen.

So, for two weeks they couldn’t do anything because he had broncitis, they couldn’t take the tests to see what was to be done, so they had him on painkillers for two weeks. Last Monday they said they would do the angiogram on his legs, and then said they’d have to do an operation, a kind of bypass to add blood circulation to his legs. They said they’d have to do to operation ASAP so he wouldn’t have to lose his legs.

Well, on Thursday my sister tells me they’re going to take his right leg. As in amputate. So, on Friday, dad lost his right leg. I guess in an effort to save his left one, and him. So for the near future, he’ll be staying in the hospital.

Aside from that, I’ve been sick for four weeks straight. I never recovered completely from that flu I had in late September/early October. I can’t sleep because I cough so much, even though I’m punishing myself with cough syrup. I’m awfully tired. All I want to do is sleep and not have to worry about anything. Yet I worry about my lack of creativty and motivation. When you want to be/become/study to become an artist, you can’t afford to lose your motivation, not to speak of your creativity.

And here’s a new layout, line art at its best.