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Some of you might’ve noticed, precious-darkness.org has disappeared. Endore.com went out of business, and my files and databases with them. I’m in the progress of transferring my domain elsewhere, but until then, my fanlistings on that domain are on hiatus.

OIHFASFJKASGJKAEKE KAEGKEASLGJAESKFJAWEKJlkhasldk vgkojQDYI!86p0!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mr. whatever who was in charge of endore.com, I really appreciate you not telling your customers that their files might leave, and never come back. I only had 1500 + members in my databases, and of course, it isn’t your fault I didn’t have any backups of them, but telling me to DO so, would’ve been appreciated.

Blah. I’m quite pissed, but life goes on. I finally got my excuse to get a reseller account.

I’m so tired. I’m always so tired. Yet I sit here, after a few days away, surfing, doing nothing, staying awake. And still I have school tomorrow, at 8.15 AM, no less. And still I just sit here, moaning of how tired I am. Always so tired. I don’t even wake unless someone shakes me up. No pun.

And yet I feel I should be more productive, obligated to update more often, my fanlistings, my weblog, make wallpapers and LJicons. And I just talked myself into an even bigger mess. An unavoidable mess, even, so I don’t blame myself much. Only a little, since I did bring this upon myself by being lazy, like, two years ago. I pay now. However, I talked myself into a three days of work per week, ADDED to my full day of school. The three days I only had 2-3 hours of school, I am working from next week forth, at least three weeks. After that, I don’t know. I can’t bail out on this, or I won’t graduate. Yet I feel so god damned sorry for myself. Because I am so tired!

I need to give myself a break. Yet I have a pile of homework and the likes to do this weekend. My weekends are supposed to be kept open for my workout. I have a gym card that costs me a little above 50€ a month, yet I can hardly ever use it because of lack of time. So I promised myself I would go fri/sat/sun to the gym from this week forth.

Let me just wallow in self pity this once. I’ll feel a lot better later on.

I’ve been making LJ icons during all of my off time. I’m crazy, I know. But I’ve started using my 2½-year-old LJ after a 2-year hiatus. Honestly. I’ve forgetten I own it. Not until recently did I remember, and then everybody else seemed to use theirs. So I joined a few communities, including a LOTR icons one, and now I’ve been making them non-stop.

I’m thinking, maybe I should make a WP/Icon/Avatar website for all of my li’l pieces of mini-artwork (if you could call it that). I could even use MT to update, so it wouldn’t be too hard and time consuiming. It wouldn’t be much, as of yet, but I’m only starting up after not making…nothing…in a long time.

Blahness. Whatever. I’ll dwell on it a little more. While sleeping. I’m exhausted. If you have an opinion about whether I should make a website for the above mentioned features or not, and/or if you think people would be interested in seeing my attempts on being an artist, please comment! I would very much not want to make an ass out of myself.

There is, of course, a new layout. I would, of course, appreciate comments. I am obsessed enough with LOTR at the moment to make each and every layout feature it. Them. Us. Whatever. And Minas Tirith is, of course, and indeed very beautiful. I was surfing through some LOTR appendix thingy, and was reading about different things in different places, in Middle Earth, that is. I had already started on the layout, and I found this thing about The White Tower, and under The Tower of Ecthelion was this quote:

…the Tower of Ecthelion, standing high within the topmost walls, shone out against the sky, glimmering like a spike of pearl and silver, tall and fair and shapely, and its pinnacle glittered as if it were wrought of crystals…

And I somehow thought it very fit. Of course, I couldn’t get the entire quote fit in the layout without making it messy and cluttered, so now there’s only a fraction of it left, “as if it were wrought of crystals”. Anyway. I read the books like two years ago, so I can’t remember things word for word. And it had somehow slipped my mind, the entire Minas Tirith view, and the landscapes in general. Of course I remebered some things, but The Two Towers and especially Return of the King were so war-esque, I just rushed through the details. So when I saw the movie, I thought, “This is exactly how Minas Tirith should look like”. In my head. And then I read the quote, and it applied 100%. I was just so amazed how fit for each other they were, the picture and quote.

It was worth to rant about. I bet you didn’t even read it comletely, just skimmed thorugh, if even that. But it’s so beautiful. Permanent in my mind.

Yeah. So. I finished my second read of Queen of the Damned today. It took me a while to get through it, but it was nonetheless enjoyable and awesome. But…I dunno. It seemed different this time. Maybe because it wasn’t a translation, but still. Maybe because I sometimes had short periods when I wasn’t reading at all, and the last time I just ate it all up. Maybe I noticed things a little better this time, or had time to dwell on the details. Whatever. It was different. But good. (I don’t know whom I’m trying to convince.)

This is the most perfect entry ever. I could squeeze in both LOTR and the VC in one entry. Be very, very, proud of me. It might not happen in a while, again.

Happy New Year folks! It’s time again to go through last years new year’s promises:

>> Do one better with the books. 38.
21. *pout* Less than the year before. I suck.

>> Do well in all my exams, a 7 at minimum. (Ouchies.)
I have yet to receive anything below 8 (4 being worst, 10 best).

>> Get a job for summer.
Went exceptionally well. Worked there for, what, 8 weeks? And they’ve said they’re willing to take me back even.

>> Get my drivers license, finally.
I just started, so it counts as succeded.

>> Save most of my money.
I’m broke. But I managed to save most of my summer job earnings till mid-September. I’m proud.

As you can tell, I have some work to do. I hope I’ll have more time this year for something but school. I expect that, since I graduate in May. That leaves 6 months for other things.

I’m kind of groggy. I’ve downed 3 bottles of grape fruit long drink, 5,5% alc. My heads clearer now, but I asked for something to drink, they handed me long drink! And I was thirsty! It went down like that!

Anyway, I’m at my dad’s, and I just got, finally, through the King of the Dead (or whatever) part through with Merry, so I worked myself up into an excitement, so I’ll just leave then…

Ahem. Yes, I dragged my PS2 with me. So sue me.